I see so many artists stepping up to the plate and releasing free classes and doing live streams of making art and I keep thinking I should do that too. Because I like watching them and find them wonderful but in all honesty…I just haven’t been able to concentrate.
My stomach is in knots and I can’t completely ignore the news because I need to know what’s going on. I’m in a constant cycle of worry/calm down/worry/settle. It’s exhausting. In many ways, the uncertainty and worry is how I felt when I was getting chemotherapy. Nothing was in my control, I didn’t know how it would end, things could change on a dime, sometimes I felt strong and hopeful and sometimes I felt despair and loneliness.
The way I coped then was to let Art Brain take over. If she is busy and engaged she can easily dominate my full attention. Yesterday I cut a bunch of small cards and started making tiny collages. This one felt appropriate at the moment.
I have no wisdom to offer. No magic wand that can make things better. What I can do is tell you that I am with you. I’m here. I’m going to post simple things, just photos a lot of the time. It’s okay to be unproductive. It’s okay to just build a blanket fort and binge watch your favorite tv shows. I started self isolation a week before the virus became “official” in Michigan. So I’m at the two week mark and so far so good.
Be kind to others. Be kind to yourself. As hard as it might be, please stay home and understand that this is not a joke. I love you and stay safe.